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| Getting the most out of his raisins |
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| a G2 Party! Gabriel finished 2 whole bottles of no calorie gatorade in 5 minutes! |
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| plain Rice cake triple stacK! |
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
FOOD!
Wednesday, September 14, 2011
A Family Affair
Day 22 Days in, and Gabriel is eating 3 foods. 3. For nearly a month. And these aren't foods with many ingredients, or 3 foods, with many beverages... 3 basic foods, without additives, favoring, or anything. Gabriel has been eating Rice, berries, and beef now, successfully for quite some time.
I opened the pantry today, and felt a waive of anxiety. Gabriel's cabinet is bare. Plain rice cakes, raw rice, rice noodles, and rice cereal is all. As grown ups, we cant stick to a well balanced weight loss diet with chocolaty meal bars and diet ice cream for a few weeks, and now, I watch Gabriel take unsatisfying bites of his plain, dry burger patty without complaining.
Last week, my sister and her family came over. We were so happy to play with the cousins, and spend some quality time with supportive family. For the first time, she did not come with 4 bags full of snacks, juice, and treats. She walked in empty handed, and said "I'm hungry, can you make some more rice?"
Without being asked, or persuaded, without discussing it, or binging before she came, she walked in, with her 2 small children and Gabriel's uncle, prepared to eat like Gabriel for a day. We let beef simmer int he CrockPot, and all together, ate 5 pounds of rice. And we did for lunch, and dinner, and snacks in between. And for an entire day, Gabriel never once had to look at what someone else was eating, or smell, or wonder about how something might taste.
I think at 5 years old, he has no idea how much support he has. No one ever said "Gabriel, were eating like you today." and no one ever asked him how he felt, but I can tell you he smiled more then he had in weeks.
I opened the pantry today, and felt a waive of anxiety. Gabriel's cabinet is bare. Plain rice cakes, raw rice, rice noodles, and rice cereal is all. As grown ups, we cant stick to a well balanced weight loss diet with chocolaty meal bars and diet ice cream for a few weeks, and now, I watch Gabriel take unsatisfying bites of his plain, dry burger patty without complaining.
Last week, my sister and her family came over. We were so happy to play with the cousins, and spend some quality time with supportive family. For the first time, she did not come with 4 bags full of snacks, juice, and treats. She walked in empty handed, and said "I'm hungry, can you make some more rice?"
Without being asked, or persuaded, without discussing it, or binging before she came, she walked in, with her 2 small children and Gabriel's uncle, prepared to eat like Gabriel for a day. We let beef simmer int he CrockPot, and all together, ate 5 pounds of rice. And we did for lunch, and dinner, and snacks in between. And for an entire day, Gabriel never once had to look at what someone else was eating, or smell, or wonder about how something might taste.
I think at 5 years old, he has no idea how much support he has. No one ever said "Gabriel, were eating like you today." and no one ever asked him how he felt, but I can tell you he smiled more then he had in weeks.
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
elimination
A few weeks ago- Gabriel started feeling very Ill again. He didn't have energy, and lost his coloring. He would frequent the bathroom, and flush before I can ask how it went.
Gabriel is old enough to understand what happens when he's not feeling well. He knows that it begins with the doctor, tests, and ends with taking away another one of his few precious foods. He's old enough to know that he hates the process. But, Gabriel is still too young to understand that it has to happen. Too young to get that it gets worse, and his body gets more sick if we don't do something.
So, we get stuck in this pattern of denying diarrhea, other symptom, and lying about how he feels.
Gabriel is old enough to understand what happens when he's not feeling well. He knows that it begins with the doctor, tests, and ends with taking away another one of his few precious foods. He's old enough to know that he hates the process. But, Gabriel is still too young to understand that it has to happen. Too young to get that it gets worse, and his body gets more sick if we don't do something.
So, we get stuck in this pattern of denying diarrhea, other symptom, and lying about how he feels.
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